From: Rovaan
Date: 5/8/03
Time: 2:47:20 AM
Remote User:
Jasper-
You tap in here with your words the age old question I have always struggled with. How do I know I believe? Some may say that question is pointless. Either you believe or your don't. However, I am not a person of constant or consistant personality, thoughts or even spirit. What I seem so sure of one day, can be clouded in doubt the next. Maybe others have a more stable identity but I know mine changes.
Yet when I remember the conversation Dick and I had and think of that possum in the driveway, I have a certainty that has alluded me in many other areas. If the possum had been in the back yard or down the street, I do not think I would be so certain. But it was exactly where I would park my car. The sheer perfection of how it happened convinces me that it is from a source of great power not known here on this earth.
This experience doesn't necessary shed any great light on the concept of an afterlife. It does confirm for me that a person has a connection to the universe and they can impact that universe. Do I believe Dick caused the possum to be there? Yes. Can he send more messages? I have no idea. Most likely though.
Have you ever thrown an idea out to the universe and watched the universe develop it through other people? I have. We are all part of the universe and the universe is part of us. Even when Dick was alive, we tapped our connection through the universe frequently.
I'd like to think he was off exploring new worlds but I don't know that for sure. Most days I will believe it but past experience says there will be days I don't believe.
The way I look at it is that in those times you can believe, so many things are possible that would not be possible otherwise.
As for choosing to believe, the connection is not there if you do not believe with your spirit. A conscious choice is a labor of the mind not the spirit and not very effective. The spirit of a person is not their mind, their feelings or the energy in their body. More than that I can not say. Nor can I say why I think people have a spirit to them. I do know that I knew when Dick's spirit left and it was while his body was not yet dead. You could tell he was not there though.
Rovaan