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Date: 3/11/01
Time: 2:57:03 AM
In the last year 17 people I know well, or grew up with have unexpectedly died. At the tender age of seventeen, two very close friends were killed in a car accident. Since I became ill in Oct 1990, I have lost every single friend to some illness or some accident. I have gone through these stages of grief as if I am an expert. Anger is the second stage after shock. Shock, Denial, Anger, Sadness, Acceptance. Denial and Anger can be reversed or even become one stage that lasts forever. The denial feeds the anger. The anger feeds the need for denial. My house is not very happy right now. I have been on the computer nearly twenty four hours a day because I can't sleep from the second to the last one. She was my second Mother only my Mother is still alive. She was my reserve. Now, I have my Mom and the computer. :) My best friend in this entire world passed a year ago today. At least I was informed a year ago today. I believe her husband killed her. Long story. He made sure a blod clot wasn't removed and it took off on it's own and exploded in her lungs, oh yeah, after he beat her around the legs with a cane. My life has become empty. Thank goodness for this forum and a few others as well as Geneology. I am going off topic. Being stuck in the Angry is so unhealthy. Men get stuck in Anger when their wives or girl friends get raped and end up in jail themselves for attacking the rapist. I think that more money should be spent on helping the grief process of a victim and their loved ones than on prosecuting the offender. That is where their rights come in, but our Country doesn't care how the victims do, they just want to keep them angry.